Letter to Santa

DEAR Santa,

Last few days I have been thinking, and I have been thinking hard about why I feel so alone and so helpless at times. Why I feel that ‘nobody cares’ and mystically enough I have been coming up with joyful answers. I believe that it doesn’t matter if no one cares cause I have a loving family which cares and that’s what I need everything else at the moment is materialistic. There have been some failures in last few months which have heart breaking but despite that my heart, mind body and soul wants me to try once again and so will I. Often I have quietly accepted thing lying down , I have silently said to myself “ You Can’t have Everything In Life” and moved on but na not this time. I believe it is time to rise up and fight. I believe it’s the time to give it a whole hearted try ,cause five to ten years down the lane I would not like to cry over lost opportunities. I think its time to shed all my inhibitions ,all my fears and be reborn . Revitalized with a new verve to take on the challenges this world has to offer. It will be tough times I know and I will miss you my friend , but I guess I will overcome it cause there are people who stand behind me like a rock and I know no matter what the situation is they will always be there, Thank you god and Thank you my Family.
Ok so here is my new year resolution that whenever I am down I will remember my family and day to myself well do hell with this world , I will do live for them ,and above all I will live for myself. I know all through these 19 years of existence I have held myself back , I have underestimated my abilities but from now on I promise myself to give it a shot no matter what the result it. After all its my life and I want my decisions to shape it. So all I can say is it would have been great if you would have been here with me my estranged friend ,but even if you are not life isn’t that bad . Merry Christmas and a happy new year. Hope this is one of the most successful years of my life and to all those people who cared to read this well hope you have a great year too .
Cheerz !!!

by Santa
I hope i keep my promises

DREAMS

Tagged

Neha tagged me. Earlier Umang also tagged me but I was a lil busy so couldn’t reply . I am sorry ,but here I am free . I am at home these days and having all day at my disposal . The world it seems has come to a halt.
After all those hectic exams it is a relief but more importantly its time I must utilize for preparing myself for placements coming up in February. I hope I will enjoy my self at the campus.
Anyways coming back to tag , you have to tell about your dreams . Now I am a day dreamer , all day I think about my dreams . Sometimes , I want to start my own business by opening a Small Stock Analyzing Company which helps people become rich by giving them advice on which stocks they should buy . Other times I would like to try a hand at the services sector , taking on lease the cafeteria of my college and running it 24*7 . Make no mistake about it I will yield a turnover of 50 – 60 lakhs annually ,given the lack of any good restaurants in the vicinity of my college but of both of these things to happen , I need to do Mba from a good college and that’s what my dream is . With cat only a year away I dream of making it to one of the premier instis like in the iim’s and having a challenging time there . Its not going to be easy but then that’s how dreams are meant to be . They are meant to push you , till you reach the pinnacle isn’t it??

I have lived a life in these instis ,through all the pictures , one of my friend is in iim –a ,and he is my constant inspiration . I hope one day I’ll be there too , hmmm so much for the professional dreams .
On a personal level nothing gives me more satisfaction the writing , I would love to be a writer perhaps write a column occasionally for a newspaper sometime in future . Dreams … hmmm
What a feeling it would be that millions of people are reading what u wrote and that’s putting a smile on their faces !! What you write makes them forget all their troubles for a few moments . or gives them courage to stand up and fight back .

I also have a dream to open an Ngo which will help all street children by educating them . This is the thing I want to do , and for this I need money and my business I hope ,will be providing me with funds.What else ?? I have a lot of dreams I can go on till eternity but yaa I dream about finding that one special person people call “ LOVE”. Yup one day I would like to be crazy about someone ,love someone so much that I can put my existence on hold for that person .
Last but not the least I would like to fulfill every expectation my mom and dad have from me . Mom you are my rock , you have really been with me through my tough times , and I assure you one day you’ll be very Proud of me ---Luv you.

Thanks neha , if you hadn’t tagged me I would have never written these things down and this is the sort of post I really needed to write to push myself at this hour .

Magic or Mafia ??

ok folks happy diwali to all of you . Diwali for me wasnt that great , i was in my college missed home and mall (pun intended). Anyways my college is in Guna (m.p) a remote place though it is theconstituency of Scindia's ,who are in fact the rulers of erst Gwalior . Perhaps they are busy with the politics in delhi and dnt care for the people here whom they take for granted as they are their Raja . Ok leaving the politics aside , Guna being a remote place has a lot of weird people ,their are A gang of Dakuus here too ( phulan devi Types).

So i banged into one of these people yesterday on diwali .It was dusk ,sun was biddind a goodbye and i was in a hurry to return to my campus.I had gone to Guna (main city ,college bein 30ks off it) to buy some crackers,candles etc . I am my friend were going to bus stop when a baggar came and asked for a rupee. It was Diwali ,i did not wanted to turn away this beggar i didnt had a ruppe so i gave him a coin of two instead and was about to proceed when this Man asked me to take his blessings. I thought why not , he picked up a stone ,and from no where another person came around , i dnt know what had happened to my mind as i never noticed his presence . i guess when we are busy we dnt really care about minute things , so this person came up i never protested his coming . The beggar took up a pebble and then second person (who came up recently) told me to wrap it up in a note . I looked in my purse and saw i had only a thousand note and two hundred notes , i took out one and wraped the pebble in it . The person now made me fold my hand into a Mutthi , and kept one of his hand over it , then he made me close my eyes and recite "Jai Mata Dii" .


And when i opened this mutthi to my amazement and horror ,my Rs 100 had changed into a locket . i was dumbstruck . I never realised when the 100 rs note slipped out of my hand and turned into a locket .

Was it magic or a trick ??

I am left wondering still but i guess it was a trick , these person told me to keep the locket with me always and went away .Now with all this happening , i wasnt alone my friend was woth me too . He managed to fool both of us .I still dont know how he managed to get that 100 bucks out and slip in the Tabeez . I kept the tabeez in a temple as my friends advised me , but still kind of
bugs me as to how this person made a fool out of me too easily , I decided to have no mercy on begaars anymore , world is so callous i used to think . I guess incidents like these makes people callous and i am being no exception afterall fr this money my parents had to toils hard > though i was lucky it could have been a thousands note too .


Although i do admire this person's "hath ki safai" as my friend said . Black magic said another friend but i am still wondering , though would love to meet this person again and this time i will be prepared with a fake note .

Anyways when we come across these situation i dnt know what happens to our mind , i believe all people must have had experiences when the mind doesn't know whats happening. This was a game and a trick i realised later cause i started talking with a beggar when the other person saw i was in their trap and i had given them a coin ,only then he came out of no-where.

And he befooled me as if i was a baby , it was a weird experience and i think i will be much more careful next time ,these persons always target you when ypou are alone or if you are not in a big group .

Its important to be a little vigilant cause these persons will rob you in front of your eyes and worse you cant even label them as theives.

kargil::from mouth of a soldier

Another train journey and here I am with another varied experience. Na its not about poor people this time .Its about the people who fight for you, its about people who lay their life for you and you don’t even know them, its about people who risk their life every time so that you can live safely in your home, its about the people who don’t get to see their families or celebrate festivals with them are they not privileged enough??? Na it’s not about privilege. Maybe they are the luckiest people around because they are serving their Motherland. No marks for guessing now, ya it’s about our soldiers who are there fighting for us at the border, keeping vigil. There are those bodos in Assam with their deadly traps , the naxals in Andhra , and pak funded terrorists in J&K .If it hadn’t been for such a strong army India would have dissolved into small states a long time ago .

I met this person oh I must correct myself , I met this soldier belonging to 4th Para Jumpers at delhi .He was traveling to Agra. In a free wheeling conversation between my friend ,myself and this jawan this is what I gotta hear and conclude ::

The guy belonged to himachal , ok you can accuse me of being a state chauvinist but this conversation owe its origin to the fact that three of us belonged to same state , anyways moving further . I was not much interested about this guy and went to my berth in the coach but when the topic of kargil came about I was forced to stand up and listen . The soldier said

“ Before this we have only seen wars in many films but it was Kargil which gave us an opportunity to fight one. We were told that it was a normal jump and air lifted from Agra. Some of people did not have their lunch too but soon they realized it was not normal jump as they were no parachutes around , it was time for Action .”

Now what the hell was Indian Army thinking , how can they lift soldiers up without telling them where they are going , the people landed in Srinagar an hour and half later.

These people were not allowed to leave the premises of the airport and same place where food for 500 people was used for cooking food for 3000 people. There was a fracas for food , with people josting for a single munch , anyways it was time of war and I guess the people had no other option but too satiate their hunger by tasting blood rather then food.
After food these people were given dress and ammunition , mainly a gun and a bag weighing 25kgs containing first aid, some pills of vitamins .

When I asked him about how many days you can survive in these pills in their bag he said

“ two days . and added that their task was to relieve the jawans of Rajputana Rifles (who were fighting in the peaks ) , they were to supply them with ammo,food and medicines and fight and go further top of the hill and try to capture the peak .

The Strategy was simple :

WE were divided into buddy pairs the mantra was “ Survival . chahe job hi hoo jaaye saathi ki jaan naa jaane paaye.”

and their order was to kill the enemy and capture the peak at all costs . The enemy he said mainly were jawans of Pakistan . now all of us knew that first casualty of Kargil War was Amol Kalia and then Saurabh Kalia respectively , from the body of Saurabh Kalia eight kgs of nails were recovered , he quipped . Saying that every pore in his body had a nail hammered into it. All his nails were ripped off .

Then he told about his own role telling us that he fought for 52 days , supplying soldiers with medicines ,ammo and battling enemy . He said for four days continuously at a strech he had no food , One incident he told about was how he gave water to a Pakistani soldier who fell to his feet begging . Humanity does exist in that battlefield as well where you can fell prey to that hungry bullet searching for your body anytime .

Bofors ::

Controversy or no controversy bofors did the job for us ,told the Jawan. He said that it shook everything each and every bunker of the enemy .
Speaking of bunkers he said that the enemy made permanent cemented bunkers on the top of peaks and filled them with ammunition which could last years . They had even captured schools in some locations . The air force he said was helpful but never had much accuracy.

When I reached home I had beard, my face was chaffed, hair was sticky as resembled that of a sadhu , and my body stinked told the jawan .

Some Serious Stuff

Ok people , i told some of you that i work as a free lancer for a site , well many of you asked me to show what i write to get paid. Well money mor me never mattered its just 40 buks for a post but its the feeling you get when one of the peices you write is selected by the editors . I do this for creative gratification non the less ,its gotta be done seriously else the post is rejected here comes one of my recent posts which was accepted by the editors of the site ::


World oil production peaked in 2006 and is likely to reduce to half of current production in 2030 . Peak Oil represents the situation when amount of oil that can be extracted in a year begins to decline , because geological limitations are reached. Digging up of oil becomes more and more difficult ,so the costs increase and oil production decreases.

This decline in production is due to reduction of pressure in the oil fields. This reduction in pressure takes place as we drill oil. It becomes necessary to inject gases in the oil wells to increase pressure. Finally, even when this ceases to keep up the production oil is pumped up at a slow rate.

Germany based Energy Watch Group , an association of scientists and parliamentarians released a report titled Crude Oil: The Supply Outlook, in which it is concluded that oil production peaked at 81 million barrels a day r Mb/d in 2006 , much earlier than most experts had forecast.
The report which comes only a few days after global oil production hit a record high , has
also predicted that global oil production will fall several per cent each year and by mid 2030 it will be 39 Mb/d.

Hans-Josef,the group's founder and German Mp,told

The world soon will not be able to produce all the oil it needs as demand is rising while supply is falling. This is a huge problem for the world economy.

This report is in sharp contrast to International Energy Agency's remarks which denies that such essential changes are going to happen in the near mid-term future.

The report said that IEA's message that business as usual will be possible in near future is not reflecting the true state of affairs .

Just Life

Two and a half years are over , just one & half more and i will be out of college . Ready to take on the World , a computer engineer ...... I dont know who deserves the degree me or my parents who are really paying huge bucks to see me as an Engineer . Coming back to college ya i can still remember distinctly the first day , when i got up and went to temple and then started on this journey . Seems like yesterday , when i had to wish everybody , and look at the irony the same place i am sitting down and writing this peice ,i was ragged ,not ferociously but yes i was ragged .

Then came that Great War of first sem , and it was over soon . I have enetered the second , and had a wake up call when my roomie decided to shift his room , SO i shifted my Hostel to H -4 . Secod sem was masti time never touchedmy books still remeber that black friday when this Prof caught me copying and assigned me a D grade , tha grade will be in my grade sheet forever . Anyways third sem came ......
more on this later
A fitting reply to my infirmity , anyways moving on i had a new partner

Thoughts

I think ,you think and will all think i also thought and these are my thoughts . I dont know about you but i like ths poem , again composed when i was ill ... and taking a holiday



I thought you and me ,
together we had a future,
little did i knew
that the present would betray me
when i found you ,
i thought i found someone ,
different from everyother one

hurt i am now to realise ,
you can never be that "special one "
i thought tomorrow belonged to you and me,
pained i am to know that we couldnt even survive today's Melee
And i know its not your fault ,
but can't blame myself either ....
after i met you i thought,
" that never ending "search has finally ended ,
who was i to know?
that i stand to lose ,
the mental peace and contenment
i had earlier

The enemy Lies WITHIN

hmm here i go again after everything that has happened and a sleepy september october so far has been full of hope and joy , anyways i had thid disease in which there was water in my left lung . I had to go to Delhi to get this stuff out anyways i m fine now and back to work but i felt so miserable and helpless sometimes so this is what i wrote in that not so good times

you can fightand defeat
anyone you can see
but what will you do
when the enemy lies within
you can crush
and slay the beast
which exists on the outside
but what will you do when the enemy lies within
Slowly and silently this enemy goes to work
and before you can even know
this enemy has given you a deadly blow
you can cry,
no matter how much you try ,
this enemy does not stop agonisingly it goes on and on and on
There is no escapeyou can't run and you can't hide,
from this enemy which is no where in your sight ,
wherever you go this enemy goes with you
whatever you do you can't escape
The Enemy which Lies Within

A little humour

I was ill recently so i just realised that in india you are allowed to fall ill if you are rich ,
well i fell ill recently and i am waiting to get rich ...

anyways here is a not so humorous poem ...

I am sitting in a temple,
prayin with my eyes closed ,
still i am anxious aboutr my troubles ,
all this makes me question as to why i came here ??

I am sitting in a temple,
with questions for which i have no answer,
but i am afraid of asking d same to d almighty

I am sitting in a temple ,
stunned and hurt by the way this world works ,
but deep inside i have faith that one who made us all will see us through ...

False Alram

All those who read my last post must have thought that i am back and were eagerly wanting me to write a post real soon but that was nott possible , Just when i thought that i was alright and back to bussiness the doc had some real bad news in store anyways i m fine now and this time even the doctor thinks so .

My illness made me visit delhi and i have a lot to say about my visit . First of all , everyone of us should thank god that we are all fit and dont have to visit the hospitals everyday . I had to go to a hospital recently and i was amazed to see the number of people there and this was a private hospital so i am amazed what a government hospital would be like . Tjhere were scpres of people waiting to get treated and i really thank god that my ailment is not that serious .

Secondly i wana talk about health i dont know about you but i always neglected my health for no definite reasons . I always cursed the food of mess and that made me ill too . Anyways for all those of you who identify with me i just have a request Please eat healty in order to live healthy . My non seriousness about food got me into trouble and everyone in my family was worried too . I had to miss the very exams that i was preparing for . I dnt know what repurcussion its gonna have further but still i am happy that finally i am healthy enough to
live a normal life .

Anyways more on all this stuff a little later .. wwhen i get back to college

I m back

Its been a long time since I blogged . I guess I never wrote anything for ages wrote poems yes but no articles so I m happy that finally I m writing this piece . Life has been kind of topsy turvy this semester and last one month has been very hard but still I guess I have to move on for life never stops the clock moves on …….

Anyways what has been the positives of life till now is I haven’t opened and wrote anything in my book of sorrow this just shows that I haven’t been as depressed as I was last sem . I went to jhansi to my roommates place this august . It was a good experience all in all only that I fell ill seriously after that . Anyways I am better now and am improving day by day . There was this Test 1 and I am staring at test 2 but I am not that bothered now , I guess these exams are a test of our endurance then intelligence . Having 2 exams in a space of six hours leaves you drained and you go through this commotion twice in a sem.

Well we had a session of training and placement today finally its time to get placed its time to do something , I need to recheck my priorities cause I haven’t worked for cat for eternity . I hope things get better soon and the weight that I lost I regain soon , its been a learning curve ,I admit I did lost direction this semester for some reasons but I am back and I want to make this ig this time . Anyways the worst thing that has happened this sem is that eccentric people of my college had banned blogspot . Let them block it they cant stop me from writing or for that matter anyone I think its infringement of my right to liberty ……

I know I just typed an article which contains nothing . For all those who are reading this it doesn’t have anything meaningful but I am writing this one out of sheer urge to write …… I am back and expect some good thing from me soon hopefully cause it will be t&p time soon . Anyways speaking about placement it does get me excited and frightened simultaneously . When one is placed it gives a meaning to his academic life . The person comes to know he is good enough to take care of himself and is not dependent on his parents …… something which the parents always desire …

I hope each one of us end up somewhere ….. for this will give us the satisfaction the past three years and twelve before it was fruitful and it was not a mistake to spend them .
Anyways I do often get the feeling that I may breakdown in front of my interviewers but I am being optimistic about it I would like to say for now let the wheel roll …. Whatever future holds I now I am in for some serious fun … and I hope this Jan ’08 will be a happy hunting ground from me ..

confused again??

What do I do??

What do I do ,
tell me what do I do,
when instead of worrying about all my troubles ,
all I can think about is you

What do I do ,
tell me what do I do,
when all words I utter,
begin and end with you

What do I do ,
tell me what do I do,
when a part of me likes you,
yeah it does care for you,
still I am wondering if we will ever make it through .....

What do I do ,
tell me what do I do,
when I have you so many things to ask from you,
but my lips cease to move,
whenever I see you

What do I do,
tell me what do I do,
when no matter how hard I try,
to forget you,
I can still remember you

What do I do,
Tell me what do I do,
When there are so many things I have to do ,
But all I can do is sit and think of you ….


What do I do ,
Tell me what do I do…….




Amit Sharma
05216g
CSE – 3rd year

this one is for you rupali di

I dedicate this poem to you and wish you all the luck for your professional life which I am confident will be as bright as your academic life has been . Thank you for everything
For all d chats we had, for all d suggestions u gave ,for all the motivation it really has been a great experience and I hope things will stay the same forever ….
So here it goes

Fly away

Mama cries as she waves goodbye ,
but even those tears can’t make me stay.
Cause I gotta fly ,
Fly far away .

Yes ma I will miss you 24*7,
But destiny has had its say ,
Even I cry ,
But I gotta fly ,
Fly far away


I have had my moments ,
Ah those wonderful instants ,
You have always been on my side ,
Laughed with me when I laughed ,
And cried with me when I Cried
But I gotta Fly ,
Fly far away

Fly away to a world I know not,
To a world I always dreamt about ,
Ya I am a lil nervous ,
But I know I will overcome all troubles…


With a heavy heart I wave goodbye,
No matter how much I try ,
I can’t help but cry ,
But still I gotta fly
Fly far away ……..

Live Today for tmmw who knows what will happen

Living today for tomorrow

Life is indeed pursuit of happiness said my friend as we were about to part after having studied together for a month together . Maybe it is all of us are living today for a better tomorrow . Everyone wants to have a better future and seem to be working hard for it .
All of us have dreams and we are all working hard to achieve it but in this confusion we indeed somehow forget to enjoy our present.

I am very supportive of the fact that we should always look forward to tomorrow and that we should do whatsoever we can to achieve that goal but still in this commotion we should not forget to have fun and a good time Now .

No doubt that we should always look to improve our future but never the less this moment this time and the person you are with will never come back . So don’t sulk over your present be happy with it cause we are never satisfied with what we have . We always want more , we always crave for better and in this process keep on procrastinating the relishing our Present .

Remember
The past is history,
The future is a mystery ,
The present is a gift ,
That’s why it is called “The Present.”

hope

When everything has been said and done,
Why does my heart wants me to try once more,
When the writing is on the wall,
Why does my soul want to erase it all…..

When everything had been decided ,
Why do I still have doubts,
When all decisions have been taken ,
Why my heart is still beating with anticipation

When you have already walked away,
Why do I still pray,
That your decision might sway,
And may be you will walk my way

The not so shining india !!!

Well I know its easy to bash our country for all its flaws and defects but still I included this in the title of this piece. This one is not about corrupt politicians , or prejudiced rich capitalists its about you and me the citizens of India , those individuals who have been born and brought up in India . The people who are proud to be Indians , the people who believe in saying “Mera Bharat Mahan.” I realized this when I was traveling to my college in the train this time around , everything was fine I was lying on the my berth when this happened and forced me to think , and that thought in still lingering in my mind as I write this . A train journey clearly depicts all strata’s of Indian society . All trains have three classes which are divided according to fare the passengers can pay and rightly so .

It happened like this that at a place called palwal , a group of laborers came in my compartment . As my seat was near to the door so I could observe them , from this group a lady and her daughter came near my seat . I was in the upper birth and my friend was in the lower one . The lady was wearing a simple saree but one could see that she was clearly undernourished , her face was mellowed with troubles and lines in her forehead were so deep perhaps by the difficulties she had to face to earn her bread and butter .
She told to my friend to accommodate her daughter on his berth he did not agreed at first. These people are often stealing things he told me and asked me to beware and keep my eyes open but after some more requests the lady did finally manage to have her way .
Opposite to my berth was seat of an elderly lady , the lady herself sat in that seat but this lady shooed her away . She now stood , an in another birth one of my friends was sleeping this was the middle berth , this lady put her 5 year old child there . he was in slumber now this friend of mine , was very tired and as soon as he realized about this sleepy boy he shouted at this lady that an told her to take this child away , lady resisted but finally she awoke the boy and took her away , boy was asleep and he began to cry.
Seeing this lady’s face further sadden , pain and anguish was clearly visible on it . Agony it seems has found a residence in her face . As she carried to child off she said
“paisa hii sabh kuch hai , paisa hii sab kuch hai . ” I was there seeing all this , but I never told the lady to put her child on my berth , I was worried about my lap top and the drafts I had in my bag . A thought struck me that terrifies me still , I could also have been in the place of this child, just because I was not there cause by luck my mom and dad can afford the fare , but why do we (me and my friends ) harbor such prejudices dnt we have responsibilities towards our country . I dnt know how many of u people have realized this but it still bothers me , there are people in our country who cant afford to have a meal once in a day , life for them is a struggle right from day they are born I am luck enough to study in a college which had a fees of 1.55 lakhs per annum and these children , would not have even seen this much amount of money . We can all say that government should do something but what has it done so far , it is busy makin rich super rich hardly anyone worries about these people , look at the condition of general compartment in the train I dnt think I can travel there , and then there are people in ac who enjoy all the comforts .

But spare a thought for these people who wage a war their entire life against poverty and destitution , no one likes to steal but aren’t we forcing them to steal , everyone desires a lavish life so do these people and for these few maybe stealing is the last resort I dnt know where these people got off but I noticed a policeman there demanding 250 bucks from one of the passenegers who had got into this compartment with a general ticket , well I did not have to go far to see how much mahan mera bharat is , to see how much my India is shining but sadly I don’t know how to help these people get out of this , sadly I dnt know what I can do that maybe that child could go to a school and have a life like me you and all of us .

student politics

Students & Politics

India is the world’s largest democracy . Being a democracy all her citizens above age of eighteen have the privilege to elect our representatives who will represent us ,our views , our interests and raise issues concerning our wellbeing in the legislative assemblies. This system has been carried in the colleges too and almost all political parties have their student wings. Student politics act as breeding ground for future leaders of our country. For any country to progress she should have dynamic and innovative leaders who have the ability to satisfy and manage
diverse and often conflicting demands of co-allition politics and student politics prepare these youth leaders of our country for this mammoth task.
Many national leaders like NCP’s Tariq Anwar , BJP’s Ravi Shankar Prasad and CONGRESS’ Manoj Tiwari started their political journey as these student leaders. A disciplined student politics concentrates on genuine student issues like fee hike, protesting against bureaucratic attitude of authorities, having a good laboratory, a good library etc. These student leaders are supposed to be the real guardians of students’ rights.
In short these leaders are expected to be honest ,sincere and hard-working individuals who are expected to take up all issues which concerns the interest of students and find a solution for them with the help of administration of their respective colleges and universities. These leaders are expected to become the vanguard of fellow students who elect them as their representatives but reality is agonizingly different .

These so called leaders are influenced by the money and support received from local leaders and due to this they also have develop vested and political interest which surmounts their commitment and loyalty towards the real issues of student interest which they have been elected to raise. Furthermore, these student leaders do not know anything about ongoing struggles related to different socioeconomic issues and debatable issues in national and international politics etc.All these people get handy and ready made materials from their political high commands and speak according to what they are told without using their intellect . If these leaders are questioned about issues of Iraq,or suicide of farmers they cannot utter a single word.
As far as just demands of students are concerned these are often not fulfilled by these student leaders at both college and university level because these students are related to political parties which are directly or indirectly supporting issues like fees hike, bureaucratic attitude of authorities ,corruption of funds etc .
In the present scenario student elections have simply become a show of money and power for all the political parties involved .The real issues of students can never really be addressed and are often put on the back burner. Genuine issues and honest leaders are often insulted and overshadowed by power of money and hogwash politics of leaders political parties.

New destructive face of student politics includes everything be it threats, violence or even cold blooded murders as it happened in the case of Ujjain’s Madhav College where Professor Harbhajan Singh Saberwal was beaten to death last year following a skirmish with the activists of ABVP last year. After this incident a committee headed by then India’s chief election commissioner Mr. James Michael Lyngdoh was formed to reform the electoral system currently practiced at university and college levels .
Most of the student leaders in colleges ae in their 30’s . They are enrolling in colleges just for the sake of contesting elections.
The report specifies that elections should be held annually, no donations from political parties should be allowed, a limit on poll expenditure to 5000 Indian rupees , age limit of 17-28 years , a ban on printed posters and banners .Additionally the candidate should be a regular student of the institute and have a minimum attendance of 75 percent and no criminal record . If these rules are followed then interference by political parties will definitely reduce , and genuine students can get a chance to become a real representative of students .

With a limit on campaign expenses the use of huge posters, open jeeps and luxury cars ,loud speakers which made all this process sensational and fascinating will fade out .

Lets hope that all these measures will be strictly enforced and Indian politics will be sanitized of all the evils from which it is suffering at present .










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time waits for no one

Clock!!

Tic- tock, tic- tock,
Second by second,
The clock runs so fast,
It doesn’t even give you time to recollect ,
and rethink where did you go wrong last,
and till the time you realize ,
this clock had just run you out………..


Seems like yesterday,
when you had the whole world at your feet,
but because you just couldn’t capitalize,
everything in life has come to a sad ,sad demise

Even now I remember ,
The opportunity that I missed,
Ah!! the blunder that I did commit,
And for that slip up so much have I suffered,
You just can’t imagine how much shit,
Have I heard,
But can I turn back this clock even once??

Tic tock, tic tock
There it goes again,
Left over is the bitter truth,
Of chances missed and opportunities lost,
Can I now set things right,
Can you believe just a few years ago everything was alright,
Can that time ever return ??
Nah It won’t ,
Everything is now blown,
And with it my dreams and aspirations,
Have also flown,

Tic tick, tic tock,
It goes on and on ,
Never will it stop,
Nor will it wait for anyone,
Tic- tock ,tic-tock,
Its always on the move ,
you better watch out ,
Before it gets you screwed!!!!


Today the time may be on your side,
Maybe at this time you are on the right side of tide,
But watch out, tic- tock, tic- tock,
This clock is moving on ,
And maybe this is the silence before a dreadful storm…..


Tic-tock, tic-tock,
This is the sound of life ,
You have to hear it ,
You just can’t escape it,
Whether you like it or not
You will die one day,
But the clock with its tic-tock, tic-tock will keep living on and on and on…….

Deep inside of me

Deep inside of me,
There is a world waiting to be explored,
feelings yet to be deciphered,
dreams yet to be fulfilled,
And stupidities I love to make

Deep inside of me,
There is a revered fire,
Which shoots me up everyday.
Which gives a meaning to my life,

Deep inside of me,
There are aspirations which I live for,
There are things I hate,
and little secrets that I tell no one..!!


Deep inside of me ,
There is a brand new world,
Of which I am the emperor,

Deep inside of me,
There is hidden innocence,
Which often gets hurt ,
By the callousness of this world…..


There is so much,
Buried deep inside of me ,
But still I look outside ,
For a few moments of happiness….?

Desperation

You came into my life as a whiff of fresh air,
Sadly you have left ,
But the fragrance that you brought along ,
Still remains……..so, so strong


When you were with me ,
I almost forgot about the time ,
After u left,
Days have turned agonizingly so, so long.

When you were with me,
we used to dream,
But now that u have gone,
Forget the dream,
I cannot even sleep

When u were with me,
I used to forget the world,
But after u moved on,
Its been difficult to live along

When you were with me ,
I never used to remember you,
But After u departed,
Ur nostalgia still carries along


It was great to be with you,
But without you ,
Life moves on still,
Sure I do miss you ,
But life is greater than you ,
Call it desperation,
Or frustration ,
I gotta live this life wid out you ……………

junk!!

I don’t know but I am ahead of all this now. Perhaps I have grown up , perhaps all those boyish and kiddish emotions have vanished at the stage of life where I am these things perhaps have no meaning, from the point where I am standing I can see myself changing I can see myself becoming a success I can see myself growing and I can see myself moving away from you . I am sorry but this is true and I cannot help it, I just cannot be the same again .In front of me lies a world which I have to conquer , a world which offers me challenges , a world which is giving me everything if I can muster the courage and intelligence to grab it but sadly my friend all this I taking me away from you and I apologize for going with the flow , I have a world to conquer but sadly if I have to do it I have to do it alone . I have moved on yes I have moved on knowingly or unknowingly my world has changed and now I have to achieve is nothing but success.

I don’t know why I wrote it but I wrote it – I call it junk call it what u think ? still I dedicate this trash to someone who was very close to me though I was never close to her.
Junk!!
Hey tell me the truth don’t lie in my dreamz I saw you , was it you or not ??
How can I but, forget you ?
how dare I remember you no more ??
but even if it was you it wouldn’t have made a difference
cause when you are near,
I began to shiver,
Seems like I am having a fever,
My voice begins to stammer ,
Feels like running away from there,
My Heart begins to pound harder,
All this makes my friends jeer ,
But I just don’bother,
Cause times that I get to see you are pretty rare ,
aNd I can’t help but ponder
why we aren’t together,
why do we had to move away from each other,
these are the questions for which I have no answer,
I didn’t do anything wrong as far as I could remember,
So will u provide me with an answer ,
for how long will I have to go under this hammer ?
writing all this makes me look like a looser,
but in reality I am just a lonely engineer.

(How many r’s did I use anyone counted ?? )

The real king of Multitasking

The real king of Multitasking


Well most of you would have thought that I would be talking about computers and their abilities to perform multiple operations simultaneously. If that’s what you are assuming then you are wrong .I am going to talk about people’s multitasking abilities.
There are many people playing various roles in the society today, some of them do justice with all their responsibilities and perform the duties of requisite roles to perfection
While others fail very badly at it. Infact they end up doing miserably in their primary roles as well .Perhaps that’s why it is often said that we should do only that thing which we are best at .
Take an example of Mr.Sharad Pawar honorable M.P , Union Agriculture Minister , President BCCI, President M.C.A (Mumbai cricket Association) and finally President NCP and if this was not enough he was in the running for presidentship of ICC as well .

Fortunately or unfortunately he did not succeed in this attempt. All this shows that Mr.Pawar is a pretty versatile personality handling with ease issue ranging from affairs of B.C.C.I to issues concerning election of President of India, but is he able to do justice to all these myriad roles. Is he able to deliver and meet the demands of all these roles he is so comfortably multitasking . The answer is a big NO. I will not be going into politics and talk about his role as the president of NCP but I will be talking about his role as a Union Agriculture Minister and the President of BCCI as these issues are of national interest.
We all know our country is progressing and that our economy is growing at a rapid pace.
The GDP has clocked over 9% last year ,Rupee has strengthened against Dollar and dollar’s value has come down to Rs.40 but sadly agriculture’s contribution to all this is a paltry 3%. This sector is growing at a rate which is lowest when compared to all other sectors which constitute the economy . Every now and then death of farmers are reported from various parts of country making the growth story of our economy a laughing stock .
Many agricultural scientists believe that we need a second revolution , the need of hour is to reduce our perennial dependence on monsoons and use high yielding hybrid seeds .
We also have to educate farmers about modern methods of farming and supply them with latest equipments .

Sadly ,nothing is being done about it except giving death packages to the family of the deceased because at the helm is a man who is too busy to look into all these matters concerning the interests of farmers . He has to play other roles as well . Mr.Pawar does not have the time as he has overburdened himself with other responsibilities .


Now lets talk about cricket . Mr.Pawar has been at the helm for about two terms as a president now and during his term the state of Indian cricket has gone from bad to worse .
BCCI , the richest cricket board in the world is not a stranger to politicians being its presidents but under chairmanship of Mr.Pawar its administration has touched a new low.
Everyone knows about the world cup debacle and drama which has taken place while the appointment of new coach .BCCI may be the richest in terms of money but is among the most inefficient bodies when it comes to working .The tv deals are also being scrapped , but Mr. Pawar does not have enough time to devote to this role as well .
So if the team is leaving to England without a coach then so be it , who the hell cares ??
Mr . Pawar has other things to attend to as well afterall he has to decide who will be our new president . So, Mr. Pawar is on tv not talking about who will be the new coach or what he is doing as an agriculture minister to stop the suicides , he is here to talk about which way his party is going to vote in the president elections.

All these jobs needs a specialist person who can handle all these responsibilities one at a time.We all know the proverb “If we put our legs on two boats at the same time we are bound to sink” and sadly this has happened with Mr.Pawar. At an age when most people are retired or considering retirement he is keen on handling various assignments that are pretty taxing and arduous even if taken one at a time . I could understand Mr .Pawar doing all these if this affected him personally but sadly his multitasking is having an malicious affect on the public and the nation as well .Perhaps he should consider moving away from multitasking. He should do what he is best at, and it has been proved that its not multitasking.

Amit Sharma .

keep the faith !!

Just keep the Faith

well i have had this habit of making dedication of the pieces i write
here to various friends or near and dear ones !
i dedicate this one to all the people who have read my blog . Well
thanks cause because of you have really enjoyed this whole blogging
thing!! nd i have found out quite a few things bout myself.
and last but not the least i dedicate this one to myself cause this blog
depicts a very close facet of my heart . This is about keeping the faith
no matter what, this is about keep on living for that one reason about
which you think about all day and night , the mere thought of which
coming true brings a smile on your face , yup this one is about the
dream which you harbor in a closed corner of your heart !!!
So keep the faith and work for it with all you have , give it the best
you have nd remember all good thing take time to happen !!!

And maybe the path to this dream may not be so smooth , sometimes you
will have to make sacrifices , at other times you may think that no
matter how much you i try i will never make it but let me tell all of
you , at these testing times just keep the faith and keep moving on ...
I don't know what i have achieved from life , and i don't know what u,
all who are reading this have achieved in theirs , i don't know how many of
you have seen their dreams get crashed right in front of you like me but
life is not about stopping there life is about keeping the faith and
moving on , trying again with all you have nd trying till u make it .
We will all be old one day maybe sitting with our grand children someday
we will remember all our struggles, all our accomplishments nd the joy
we had in our times doing all these things .Deep down in memories there
are bound to be some failures too , of love which never started or did
not worked out ,or of not being able to do something or having
something which we so fondly desired off , or of not making it of living
up to expectations of our folks ,friends nd parents !!! but still there
will be a satisfaction , a contentment which will always be with us for
sole reason that we tried and gave it our best .

Life is not about success and failure its about trying ang giving each
and everything you do ,your best . if you have worked hard then just
relax you will be very successful in life. Just keep the faith and keep
on moving .....

Throw at life the best you have and be rest assured it will throw back
the best at you !!

feels like a tourist in your own place!!!

i m back home its been a couple of days now ....... there ain't much going on here .After a very very frusterating nd long 4th sem its is nice to be back , ya it feels good that i dnt have to be with ppl whom i dnt wana be with for a couple of days .
Still shimla is not what it was a couple of years ago ..... we have all heard and read that things change with time and that's what has happened right here in front of me ,that's what has happened wid all ppl's life and me being no exception ..... two years ago there were so many people here that it really felt nice living here but now everyone hasmoved on with their life . I have no issues with them even i moved on those who didnot well time made them move on.........
This place feels like new , the stuctures , the shops , the roads all are the same but sadly people here are new , we r born, we study , then most of us leave for higher study in this process we make friends , we make pals with whom we r like sharing all our secrets and all of us our like part of a gang !!!
Even if we dnt do much stuff , we r still a gang we go out together, watch movies together , attend tutions together basically we all spend a lot of time together.
suddenly after u complete ur schooling a new life begins , all your friends are going to different colleges , all are moving into differnt cities ........
i too moved to a different city a different place 1000ks away from my home .....
u r lucky if one of your pals comes along with you , i he/she doesn't then its time to make friends again now in college . well u have holidays in your college , u come back and realize things are just not the same , the people whom you were with a couple of years back are with you no more , some of them are in their colleges , some of them maybe in your town but now they have other friends these new friends with whom they now stay i dnt blame anyone fr this but just pause nd think when we make friends we think of making them forever but sadly this forever has a duration , which is impossed on us by destiny !!!
So i am going through conflicting emotions of sorts , i dnt know how many of you go through this, the place you are in you have been there right from your birth to just a couple of years ago but still the place is not the same anymore !! It feels like a tourist in your own place, your own city , you have been to every place before ,you know every nook and corner of your town still the feel which it gives you is not the same anymore .
the joy that you had two years ago with your gang is missing !!!

is this knowledge ???

Its exam time again , t-3 is here , gave t-2 just a while ago , engineering is all about giving exams ?? it this all , am i here fr turning up at lectures all normal days and then turning up at exams after every 30 - 40 days ?? will this make me an engineer ?? how will i widen my horizons if all i have to do i mug up . This system is stagnating , it encourages only mugging . you mug and if you are good at it you can be a nine pointer , in short your ability to mug is directly propotional to your pointer ..........

better still people here have developed some excellent tricks to multiply their marks and there pointers ...........

haggling with the teachers , for one one marks , leaving spaces blank while doing the paper at the examination hall and filling it up when teacher shows them and getting marks for this writing this by teling the teacher that he left this portion unchecked .

Man,is this education , i was told that the foundation of education is honesty but alas,its been buried somewhere ??

What will these engineers do in the interview ?? will they fool people there too ?? how do there concious permit it ?? this is a crime ,a blasphemy ,a slap on the face of godess saraswati ......

The lust for marks is rampant , in order to get ahead people have forgotten their basic and moral values they just want grades not taking into account how much knowledge they have of the subject !!!!!!!

Is this education all about ?? are we all looking for this ??
I can see people litearally begging for marks from teachers here and there to increase their marks . just for d sake of passing may seem a little justified but doing it for sake of luxury is outrageously wrong .

I don't knw what type of engineers will people become having an a grade in a subject example ds and not knowing how to implement a stack ??
System too has be blamed for this predaciament , they are looking for attendanced to decide if a person can appear in final exam ?? why are they concerned about attendance all they should be conerned about is the skills student have acquired by taking up this subject.
Being present in all classes doesn't guarantee a person will be attending attentively to what teacher is teaching ..... ?
I am not an academician but it really hurts studying under this system cause this does not give wings to my imagination it prunes it by keeping me engaged in mindless practicals where i am whiling away all my time ?
it does not give me time to think , i does not give me time to dream or to do a project at my own time but setting up deadlines before the work begins , it wants me to give three tests in a span of 6 months and cover 12 courses in a span of 9 months ........
that means i become a robot or a skimmer turning the pages without reading or understanding it . Whats the result ??i cant remember what i read last sem , forget about first sem ??
It seems we are running a marathon ad no matter what we have to complete it in 4 years it doesnt matter if we have the knowldege and skills .

We are here just for a degree complete it and go home or do a job , we are not here for growth for enjoying the learning process or for realising ts power we are here for increasing our gpa's and it doesn't matter for that if we have to beg for marks or bargain it just like we do with a shopkeeper ??

This is it , i m paying rs 135 per lecture , for all this ...........perhaps we should be awarded a shopkeeping license aw well because we are so good at bargaing and stupifying people ...

seems like commercialism have seeped through everything ??

friends!!!!!!

hmm this one is dedicated to my friends guruji , imti and joshi bhai . well thanks for everything all 3 of you . u have held me together in times of pain and distress ........ i dont know what would have this been without yu three . with you three i laugh so what if its in installments ???????
with u three i have fun and enjoy myself , hope things will be d same forever .........

waise imti is a character , i hope his mechanical works kabhi khatam honge ,
and guruji is kool , chote machiene hai woh

par joshi bhai well its easy to describe him , a happy go lucky person woh is very friendly and understanding,


its been great with all 3 of you hope t will be the sam in future .................

confused & jumbled up ??

hmm thats howz life is right now confused and jumbled up . i dont know whats going through me i am about to lose it ?? i dnt knw maybe i am but i dnt care lets just get throught it . let all d wrath and anger come to the fore , let me break and fade atleast i wll have peace then .........
"jinxed " is what i feel now .. but i will rise and i will have to move on i cant lie down by this one problem can i?? there are things to be done this java project thing is getting to my head gotta start it then there is cat there are so many thing and i am not just on the button , i am not on d track , gotta move on and prove myself ...........

i will and i can no one can stop me and no one will, i promise myself that i will lift myslf up and fightback , the more u try to get me down the more will i rise up,
the more u make me cry the more will i laugh ,
lets see how has the last laugh you or me ?????

its me vs u ?? and this time u will lose no matter what because i have no other option ...
the world fcked me up , but i dnt care now , but its time you start to care else i will fuck u and fuck u hard !!!!

all the people who come here and read the things i write well i " thank you all " this is what i really am , this is all of me !!! everything is right from the core of my heart !!!

Just let me live ........

What will you do when someone you care about fucks you up?? and kicks you at your back ?
what will you do when someone you live for just walks away, as if he never knew you?
what will you do when someone you for in times of predicament , in times of reckoning, forgets everything and turns away??
and for all this shit he gives you no reason?
you will cry but for how long??? you will repent and lament but till when ???
The pain that he gives makes your heart sinks every now and then !!
but what can you do if he just doesnot care ??
you are drenched in feeling of being all fucked up ?
Its not over yet , one fine day he comes back and says he would like to solve everything ......
says he has realized his mistakes , perhaps he is having pity oon you ??
where was he when you cried ?? where was he when you broke down ???
Now what will you do will you forget everything and forgive him ???? and move ahead .

Condone him for all the tortures? I don't know about you but i will not .
I may be a little selfish but still i will not forgive you .
You have troubled me a lot , After a lot of hardships i have learnt to live again , i have learnt to smile again , i have learnt to be have faith in friends again ..........
and i am enjoying the way i am , i am not turning back from here ......
Sorry dude but knowing me you should now that no one for me is larger then life no body just no body not even the one who fucked me all up ?
I know you have the power to hurt me again and again but wounds that you have given to me are so sore that even you can't heel me , whatever you say now , whatever you do now it makes no difference .I am the way i am , i will be the way i want to be . I have moved on , those moments will haunt me forever and those memories will be cherished forever but i will not turn back so that you can hurt me again????
just let me be the way i am and just let me live ..................

group discussion

yup thats what i wana write about to , i had a gd today ....... to join jbs . I was in two minds wheteher to give it or not cause i was not going to join the school anyhow ?? still i decided to give d gd just fr d sake of experience . I decided to do it 15 minutes before scheduled time so picked up a folder from my roommates cupboard and went to the insti .
Gt my resume printed and then went to go .
well out of 7 people only 5 came in our group .

the topic which was alloted to us way " New india need technical minds"

heres how it went i said that new india does need technical minds because our economy was booming , the gdp was clocking 9 and to sustain it we need to have techies....

everyone else to supported the topic except one guy who said that managers were needed to manage thimngs but then i said that technical people can we moulded into managers but managers cant be moulded into techies so priority was to be given to techies !!!

all in all it was a satisfying expreience as for the pi i decided to chuck it !!

it was a test for me , of my character and confidence and i did well i think

i mean when u have nothing to lose u do perform above your ability thats what i did today .
i did not shriek nor did i waned today , never once did i stammered perhaps i knew that i dont having anything to gain from it .
this arises a question "" why is it when we want somthing badly we enp up losing it ?""
why do we underperform when put to stern test under pressure ??
i dont know d answer the day i know perhaps i will be a succesful dude then ...

This one is for jackie and bhatt !!! guys both of u rock just want say thanks for everything !!!!

The memories remain .....
as i walk down the memory lane,
pondering on things that went
down the drain
i can still remember the times we had together
ah the moments we spent together
We used to have fun
together we used to see the sun
still remember the race that we did run
it was five in the morning then !!!
Time had the better of us,
now we are together nomore,
we are seperated
but are we friends nomore???
Its all over we used to joke
but this is statement on which
i have to poke
Friend we are still but this life is now
just a kill!!
feels hard to know that at times of crisis
i waned ,
feels hard to know that i was d weakest in d chain
and this thought gives me a pain again & again & again .......

I am stuck ,
and i am so cold
somehow someway i feel no more
wounds within me are still so so sore
though we have all moved on
i know the memories remain
fast and long
hope that our friendship had been just as strong ??
Without you my friends
even days are dark as night,
i want to see no more ,
no i do not want to hear anymore
i know things will never be the same again
but the meomories we spent together
will always remain......
The best time of my life
i spent with you two
and i just want to say
" Thank you "

what do i want from life ???

hmm what do i want from life ??
Well lets see , perhaps after the end of this blog i will be able to get the answers ..........

I suppose everyone wants someone from their life , some people want money , some want love ?? some fame , some power , some friends??

I am no different i want all these too . may be respect and power is what i want utmost .....

I want that people respects me for what i am , dont tell me to do this and that . They better mind there own fuking bussiness , i want people understand that everyone here had d right to lives way he wants too and thats it .

I want power ya , i do so when anyone wrogs me i can wrog him twice or maybe thrice so that i can help poor peopl living out there get a decent life , so that i can change d life of some ppl out there .

i want the power to create a difference in others life ........

last but not d least i want a true friend, a friend who understands me and supports me but he or she can wait .

hmm and it will not be complete without telling you this

i want to ell d cat yeah thats wht i want to do

man i know its a lil tough but still i wannt it ............
i wanna feel d best wana know what ma country has to offer at d utmost level......

hey this is all i want maybe or maybe not ??

Still this life is a paradox , a dilemma perhaps thats why it is so , so interesting !!!

well , how do i start ?? i dnt know . A big big big day dreamer . i believe i am in dis world to something special i hope god gives me a chance to do it .......

Believe no one is larger then life no one means no one .
i m a loner , just want to do my own stuff here . I dont get angry but i think that i think about dis world and ppl here a lil too much , maybe i should just gve a fck abt them
its my life .my fcking life and i have to live it .