Sunday, April 22, 2007

friends!!!!!!

hmm this one is dedicated to my friends guruji , imti and joshi bhai . well thanks for everything all 3 of you . u have held me together in times of pain and distress ........ i dont know what would have this been without yu three . with you three i laugh so what if its in installments ???????
with u three i have fun and enjoy myself , hope things will be d same forever .........

waise imti is a character , i hope his mechanical works kabhi khatam honge ,
and guruji is kool , chote machiene hai woh

par joshi bhai well its easy to describe him , a happy go lucky person woh is very friendly and understanding,


its been great with all 3 of you hope t will be the sam in future .................

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

confused & jumbled up ??

hmm thats howz life is right now confused and jumbled up . i dont know whats going through me i am about to lose it ?? i dnt knw maybe i am but i dnt care lets just get throught it . let all d wrath and anger come to the fore , let me break and fade atleast i wll have peace then .........
"jinxed " is what i feel now .. but i will rise and i will have to move on i cant lie down by this one problem can i?? there are things to be done this java project thing is getting to my head gotta start it then there is cat there are so many thing and i am not just on the button , i am not on d track , gotta move on and prove myself ...........

i will and i can no one can stop me and no one will, i promise myself that i will lift myslf up and fightback , the more u try to get me down the more will i rise up,
the more u make me cry the more will i laugh ,
lets see how has the last laugh you or me ?????

its me vs u ?? and this time u will lose no matter what because i have no other option ...
the world fcked me up , but i dnt care now , but its time you start to care else i will fuck u and fuck u hard !!!!

all the people who come here and read the things i write well i " thank you all " this is what i really am , this is all of me !!! everything is right from the core of my heart !!!

Monday, April 9, 2007

Just let me live ........

What will you do when someone you care about fucks you up?? and kicks you at your back ?
what will you do when someone you live for just walks away, as if he never knew you?
what will you do when someone you for in times of predicament , in times of reckoning, forgets everything and turns away??
and for all this shit he gives you no reason?
you will cry but for how long??? you will repent and lament but till when ???
The pain that he gives makes your heart sinks every now and then !!
but what can you do if he just doesnot care ??
you are drenched in feeling of being all fucked up ?
Its not over yet , one fine day he comes back and says he would like to solve everything ......
says he has realized his mistakes , perhaps he is having pity oon you ??
where was he when you cried ?? where was he when you broke down ???
Now what will you do will you forget everything and forgive him ???? and move ahead .

Condone him for all the tortures? I don't know about you but i will not .
I may be a little selfish but still i will not forgive you .
You have troubled me a lot , After a lot of hardships i have learnt to live again , i have learnt to smile again , i have learnt to be have faith in friends again ..........
and i am enjoying the way i am , i am not turning back from here ......
Sorry dude but knowing me you should now that no one for me is larger then life no body just no body not even the one who fucked me all up ?
I know you have the power to hurt me again and again but wounds that you have given to me are so sore that even you can't heel me , whatever you say now , whatever you do now it makes no difference .I am the way i am , i will be the way i want to be . I have moved on , those moments will haunt me forever and those memories will be cherished forever but i will not turn back so that you can hurt me again????
just let me be the way i am and just let me live ..................

Saturday, April 7, 2007

group discussion

yup thats what i wana write about to , i had a gd today ....... to join jbs . I was in two minds wheteher to give it or not cause i was not going to join the school anyhow ?? still i decided to give d gd just fr d sake of experience . I decided to do it 15 minutes before scheduled time so picked up a folder from my roommates cupboard and went to the insti .
Gt my resume printed and then went to go .
well out of 7 people only 5 came in our group .

the topic which was alloted to us way " New india need technical minds"

heres how it went i said that new india does need technical minds because our economy was booming , the gdp was clocking 9 and to sustain it we need to have techies....

everyone else to supported the topic except one guy who said that managers were needed to manage thimngs but then i said that technical people can we moulded into managers but managers cant be moulded into techies so priority was to be given to techies !!!

all in all it was a satisfying expreience as for the pi i decided to chuck it !!

it was a test for me , of my character and confidence and i did well i think

i mean when u have nothing to lose u do perform above your ability thats what i did today .
i did not shriek nor did i waned today , never once did i stammered perhaps i knew that i dont having anything to gain from it .
this arises a question "" why is it when we want somthing badly we enp up losing it ?""
why do we underperform when put to stern test under pressure ??
i dont know d answer the day i know perhaps i will be a succesful dude then ...