Run AWAY ?

Have you ever had this urge to run away from a task , a place , a person or from yourself ?? Well
i am having it . I want to run away from myself , i want to run away form this place , i want to run away yes but i don't know where i want to go ??? I don't know why i am stuck here in a paradox , i don't know what exams i have to give ?? I don't know what requests i have to fulfill i don't know what questions i have to answer and i don't know why i am like this ??
All i know is somewhere inside me their is a fighter who just doesn't want to let me run , who still gives me hope , who still wants to see me as a winner even after defeat and more defeats , their is this someone who wants me to fight and i will listen to him and walk again , for no matter what life for me is TRYING AND TRYING TILL YOU SUCCEED .........

Numb

Has it everhappened to you that your heart just goes NUMB , it feels nothing .......your mind stops working , well it happens in just two cases when u fall in love and when you fall out of it ....
and in my case finally after a lot of struggling , lot of fighting i am free . So how does it feels to get your heart crushed ?? How does it feels to know that things did not work out ..... ah !! it feels a lil bad , but the point is the pain will subside in a few days and i can move on then , i can fly again like a free bird in this endless sky . So who do i blame for all this anguish ?? Frankly no one .. not even myself . I never knew things were like this that they will take a turn like this ...
And good that it happened now , the sooner it had happened the better it would have been ....
Good for me i hope , Anyways i hope one day i will be writing some thing positive about love too , i mean someday my day will come too .. when every damn thing wil work out , till then all i can do is hope and wait , and i do believe other word for hope is life so i have to live my life and hope .
Gosh ..... the castle just broke , it had too i suppose anyways the pain will be buried with sands of Time , i am happy and i blame no one for this .... and its ok GOD .... you must have decided when i do get the one .....

This day next year

hello everyone ... so howz life ?? hope everything is fine at your end .....its fine here at my end too. So i was just thinking and a thought struck me where will i be next year on this very day ...
11 September 2009 .. I dnt know , but lets see i could be in bangalore or noida working for one of the 2 companies that selected me .. or maybe at home waiting for my joining i dont know ...

Anyways the pint is i will not be here in JIET , i will not be here with my roomies....and i will miss them , well it seems funny i always wanted to get out of here , get rid of this place from my life but now as the time approaches to go , i am feeling a little bad ..........just a little yes !!!

life's challenging

ok ..so i am back here again writing dis piece the 56th of my bllog to be precise ...
Life has been good all these days nothing interesting as such guess all 's fine .... i thought i was like falling in love but i got drowned i think ...anyways i am fine no worries at all , anyways we won an olmypic gold and 2 bronze medals .... this olympic and the media and the press is going ga ga over these sportstars ...ya they deserve everybit of it ...but give a thought to those also who were left out ..... we make these winners heroes and forget the others ..ok maybe it as not their day this time but still we can give them some attention , they are all national champions ofcourse ... anyways lets talk about me i am having this project on digital watermarking and seriously saying i dont know whats going to happen ? i dont know if i will complete it or not but yup i am enjoying the experience ....

i am enjoying this challenge of doing this thing and learning i dont care if i complete it or not but ya i hope it will be a journey worth undertaking .... guess many people dont get a chance to have an easy life like me , gosg maybe i am so lucky thank you god :) ...
once again dont know what all i have scribbled here its pretty random i didnt have any specifiec agenda by the wa a friend asked me to scribble something about kashmir well i will only like to say , no one has the right to play with the lives of people of j&k , i dnt know the ground situation and frankly my friend who is in jammu right now said that media only tells half the story , so based on it all i can say is that it could have been avoided if our politicians didnt want some bagful of votes ..... anyways till the next time good bye ..