Satisfaction --will i ever find it ??

I dont know .i have two jobs but i am not that happy . i have so many friends a good life better then many people but i am not happy .. i want more i dont know why ?? i am just not satisfied . inside me there is an urge to grow to prove myself again .to have baptism by fire again why ?? i dnt know perhaps because somethings just didnot went according to what i thought ..u know today i experience one of the worst feeling of life where u have everything still you feel like a miser ..an insane freak running after happiness ... and whenever i am looking to be happy ,it moves away ...god kicks it further ..nah its not god its destiny ...but i will trudge on ,i will live cause life is this ..living for new goals ,new ambitions and Pursuing that insatiable dream of being happy