To move away

To move away

from your infectious sight

from your contagious smile

from your glowing face

seems hard

and it breaks me into

many small parts

why me always

i ask

why me everytime

i question

I close my eyes

i can still see

you and me

the springs , the autums

the winters and those rains

those mornings and noons

and those evenings

all those were ordinary

but your presence made

them unforgettable and special

why cant we be together

why did we have to meet

if at the end we just had to MOVE ON

why were you to become some special

if at the end you had to be just a friend

why were you to touch the core of my heart

if you had to break it one day

to move on

and away from you

brings me pain

but its something

i have to do

cause being with you now

just doesnt feel the same

Is this what you call love ?

Is this what you call love ?

They said they loved each other , 

they promised to live together 

and part never ever

 

They said they needed each other 

and one was  incomplete without the other 

They said they were in love 

and come what may 

nothing can take them away 

 

Time flew 

two years  down the drain 

SHE said its time to part

 

She said you were not my choice 

and he was left wondering what went wrong 

 

She said its all over 

he was thinking where did he falter 

 

She said we can be friends 

he asked her 

what about the promises you made 

and swears you took 

pledging yourself to me forever 

 

And thus they parted 

for no reason her love evaporated....  

 

and he was left wondering 

where he went wrong 

 

how could he be duped 

for three long years 

and could never see through the eyes 

he would stare for hours everyday.

 

he always loved her 

always respeced her 

and made her strong 

 

When ever things went wrong 

he would be there for her 

 

And look what she did 

she didnt even think twice 

 

before one fine day 

calling up and saying  

 " I am in love with another guy again " 

 

I said  lets call her names 

lets make her realise thats its not fun 

playing with others emotions 

 

He said please don't say anything about her 

i still respect and love her .

 

i was there 

when this happened 

though i never uttered a word 

but i cant stop me from realising 

that if this is love 

then i am happy 

that i am not in love 

 

I am happy that i never made any promises 

that would be so mercilessly broken 

i am happy i saw no dreams

that would be so harshly  trampled 

if this is love 

i am happy i am single 

 

if love has to end in treachery and faithlessness its prudent never to LOVE 

 

Numb

Has it everhappened to you that your heart just goes NUMB , it feels nothing .......your mind stops working , well it happens in just two cases when u fall in love and when you fall out of it ....
and in my case finally after a lot of struggling , lot of fighting i am free . So how does it feels to get your heart crushed ?? How does it feels to know that things did not work out ..... ah !! it feels a lil bad , but the point is the pain will subside in a few days and i can move on then , i can fly again like a free bird in this endless sky . So who do i blame for all this anguish ?? Frankly no one .. not even myself . I never knew things were like this that they will take a turn like this ...
And good that it happened now , the sooner it had happened the better it would have been ....
Good for me i hope , Anyways i hope one day i will be writing some thing positive about love too , i mean someday my day will come too .. when every damn thing wil work out , till then all i can do is hope and wait , and i do believe other word for hope is life so i have to live my life and hope .
Gosh ..... the castle just broke , it had too i suppose anyways the pain will be buried with sands of Time , i am happy and i blame no one for this .... and its ok GOD .... you must have decided when i do get the one .....