feels like a tourist in your own place!!!

i m back home its been a couple of days now ....... there ain't much going on here .After a very very frusterating nd long 4th sem its is nice to be back , ya it feels good that i dnt have to be with ppl whom i dnt wana be with for a couple of days .
Still shimla is not what it was a couple of years ago ..... we have all heard and read that things change with time and that's what has happened right here in front of me ,that's what has happened wid all ppl's life and me being no exception ..... two years ago there were so many people here that it really felt nice living here but now everyone hasmoved on with their life . I have no issues with them even i moved on those who didnot well time made them move on.........
This place feels like new , the stuctures , the shops , the roads all are the same but sadly people here are new , we r born, we study , then most of us leave for higher study in this process we make friends , we make pals with whom we r like sharing all our secrets and all of us our like part of a gang !!!
Even if we dnt do much stuff , we r still a gang we go out together, watch movies together , attend tutions together basically we all spend a lot of time together.
suddenly after u complete ur schooling a new life begins , all your friends are going to different colleges , all are moving into differnt cities ........
i too moved to a different city a different place 1000ks away from my home .....
u r lucky if one of your pals comes along with you , i he/she doesn't then its time to make friends again now in college . well u have holidays in your college , u come back and realize things are just not the same , the people whom you were with a couple of years back are with you no more , some of them are in their colleges , some of them maybe in your town but now they have other friends these new friends with whom they now stay i dnt blame anyone fr this but just pause nd think when we make friends we think of making them forever but sadly this forever has a duration , which is impossed on us by destiny !!!
So i am going through conflicting emotions of sorts , i dnt know how many of you go through this, the place you are in you have been there right from your birth to just a couple of years ago but still the place is not the same anymore !! It feels like a tourist in your own place, your own city , you have been to every place before ,you know every nook and corner of your town still the feel which it gives you is not the same anymore .
the joy that you had two years ago with your gang is missing !!!

is this knowledge ???

Its exam time again , t-3 is here , gave t-2 just a while ago , engineering is all about giving exams ?? it this all , am i here fr turning up at lectures all normal days and then turning up at exams after every 30 - 40 days ?? will this make me an engineer ?? how will i widen my horizons if all i have to do i mug up . This system is stagnating , it encourages only mugging . you mug and if you are good at it you can be a nine pointer , in short your ability to mug is directly propotional to your pointer ..........

better still people here have developed some excellent tricks to multiply their marks and there pointers ...........

haggling with the teachers , for one one marks , leaving spaces blank while doing the paper at the examination hall and filling it up when teacher shows them and getting marks for this writing this by teling the teacher that he left this portion unchecked .

Man,is this education , i was told that the foundation of education is honesty but alas,its been buried somewhere ??

What will these engineers do in the interview ?? will they fool people there too ?? how do there concious permit it ?? this is a crime ,a blasphemy ,a slap on the face of godess saraswati ......

The lust for marks is rampant , in order to get ahead people have forgotten their basic and moral values they just want grades not taking into account how much knowledge they have of the subject !!!!!!!

Is this education all about ?? are we all looking for this ??
I can see people litearally begging for marks from teachers here and there to increase their marks . just for d sake of passing may seem a little justified but doing it for sake of luxury is outrageously wrong .

I don't knw what type of engineers will people become having an a grade in a subject example ds and not knowing how to implement a stack ??
System too has be blamed for this predaciament , they are looking for attendanced to decide if a person can appear in final exam ?? why are they concerned about attendance all they should be conerned about is the skills student have acquired by taking up this subject.
Being present in all classes doesn't guarantee a person will be attending attentively to what teacher is teaching ..... ?
I am not an academician but it really hurts studying under this system cause this does not give wings to my imagination it prunes it by keeping me engaged in mindless practicals where i am whiling away all my time ?
it does not give me time to think , i does not give me time to dream or to do a project at my own time but setting up deadlines before the work begins , it wants me to give three tests in a span of 6 months and cover 12 courses in a span of 9 months ........
that means i become a robot or a skimmer turning the pages without reading or understanding it . Whats the result ??i cant remember what i read last sem , forget about first sem ??
It seems we are running a marathon ad no matter what we have to complete it in 4 years it doesnt matter if we have the knowldege and skills .

We are here just for a degree complete it and go home or do a job , we are not here for growth for enjoying the learning process or for realising ts power we are here for increasing our gpa's and it doesn't matter for that if we have to beg for marks or bargain it just like we do with a shopkeeper ??

This is it , i m paying rs 135 per lecture , for all this ...........perhaps we should be awarded a shopkeeping license aw well because we are so good at bargaing and stupifying people ...

seems like commercialism have seeped through everything ??