ADIOS SENIORS

Its tome to say, a FINAL Good Bye


This piece is dedicated to all my seniors ..Thank you all these are my thoughts as I wave a final good bye .

Ever noticed water in an ocean it coalesce to form waves of different sizes ,it rises up high and then breaks into small droplets as it reaches the shore …….
This is what I feel when i sit here writing this as a Final Goodbye to my seniors ….. We all came together ,through JIET and had wonderful moments …..and now you have reached the shore and now we have to break …just as the waves do when it reaches the shore. Its been an association which I will cherish my entire life time . I have had memories with all my seniors which I will fondly remember my entire life time .
The memories are still fresh when I was ragged and made to sing songs in front of entire bus ….when I was made to dance on KAJRA RE …..and made to run all over the place bringing water for my seniors ….
But all these form a part of sweetest memories things that I’ll proudly tell my grand children someday. After this initial so called ragging period life was fun and as my friend told me last month “our senior ragged us for one month and we have been ragging them (troubling ) them next three years …..





Seniors always stood by us for everything , still remember when I used to go to their room for studying , sometimes going to their room just fr masti and sometimes discussing my projects and all …

And then came placements , and I can say that I owe a lot to my seniors . I remember how many times I went to their rooms for giving all those mock interviews ,I remember the times when they used to wait for us to conduct GD’s…the pain they took in coming to our room for everyday and conducting GD’s . The sincerity with which they corrected all the papers and gave us our scores the very next day ……
It will be hard to live the next year without you , It will be a little strange that we will not have to call SIR to anyone …I will be a little disappointing not to imitate our seniors …This BLOG which I write also came about after reading the blog of one of our senior’s. It will be hard to live without your guidance and support.

The water in the waves spread and distribute but it does come back to the ocean again when it rains , yeah I agree we have to separate and move on but the bond that we share will always keep us united . …..

Good Luck to all of you ……. SIR’s stay in touch….

As i look inside

As I look inside

As I look inside,
I find a fighter ,
Who loves his self respect more than
Anything else

As I look inside,
I find a child,
eager to learn,
All the lessons
Life has to offer

As I look inside
I find an idiot
Who sometimes does not know
What to say and what to do

As I look inside,
I find a taciturn
Who has so much to say
And so much to tell
But will never say them when they should be told……..

As I look inside
I find a winner
Who fought & won
When peple around him gave up and cried

As I look inside
I find a looser
Who never told & gave up
Someone things he
Should have tried

As I look inside
I find a coward
Who gave in
When everybody stood up

As I look inside
I find an insatiate
Running this never ending race
to fulfill his dreams
some body tell him
this world cannot be ruled





As I look inside
I find a stupid
Who is looking for happiness in future
Without enjoying the present

As I look inside
I find a soul
Waiting to be loved
Some body tell
Him love is no where to be sold
And something are never said
Believe me they are not even told
But They are only understood ……


That is what I find when I look inside ……..

ever tok a look inside What do you all find ???

Half Century !!! Yipee

So here it goes .. this is my fiftieth post . What started as a naive attempt to put on script my thoughts soon grew into an obsession and i am here writing my fiftieth post ..... Well i was waiting for this one ... so when i opened my blogspots and saw i had 49 posts and this will be my 50th i now plan to write what i thought to write in my 51st post and write something about the people who read my blog in ths post

This post is dedicated to all my readers
Reeti Di & Rupali di , UMANG,NEHA ,Aditi ,Chetna,Sameer Sir ,Anupam sir and Mrinal and Sharvani
Thanks for your comments and keen insights , its been a wonderful journey till now and i hope the same continues forever

Live & let live

Live and Let live this is the new motto of my life after some incidents which happened between me and my friends recently . I don't know how i became so involved in thir life that i forgot i had a life of my own too ........

i dont know why but ya i am sorry as it turns out to be you often end up becoming what you hate becoming the most,maybe the same thing happened with me but now i have realised my mistakes and i think i will not be that overpossesive idioot anymore who is giving his advices to everybody even when no body needs it .

Anyways these days these has been a lot of focus on my hairstyle so i would like to mention it here that ya i paid 350 bucks for it but the past part is i m loving it ,though at that time it thought the barber overcharged and made a fool out of me . Some of my friends got inspired and got a hair style themselves but i wil like to tell you mine's the best ... cause i am the best he he ;)

Some lessons are thought by life itself ,yup i will remember this and try to mind my own life ....

Added a pic ...so you can all see where the 350 bucks went

Placements

Well finally i am blogging after a gap of over two months and it feels great to be back here , First of all i would like to inform all of you that i have cracked two companies
Torry Harris Bussiness Solutions & Tech Mahindra . So all the hardwork of last five to six months and thirteen to fourteen Years paid off .

I would like of u to read a piece i wrote in october lat year in which i wrote in the concluding paragraph
"I hope each one of us end up somewhere ….. for this will give us the satisfaction the past three years and twelve before it was fruitful and it was not a mistake to spend them .
Anyways I do often get the feeling that I may breakdown in front of my interviewers but I am being optimistic about it I would like to say for now let the wheel roll …. Whatever future holds I now I am in for some serious fun … and I hope this Jan ’08 will be a happy hunting ground from me .."

In this post i talked about satisfaction and now i know i was very very incorrect to have written it. Placements are important but they can never be used as a barometer to judge our entire academics. SO what is placements all about ?? many of my juniors have popped this question to me . well let me give you my perspective

Placements hmm a normal guy do dream about getting placed when he opts for a college that is before the first year had begun itself , we join a college on the basis of its placement even i took this decision to come to GUNA cause i knew that i will have an option to sit for placements in NOIDA.
Anyways lets start with the real story ...About placements ... well i seriously believed that no matter what the result is at time of placements i would have fun but well until i got my first placement life was no fun at all . lemme tell u about it from starting

We all were told from our seniors that to qualify in the written we have to cheat .. Well you like it or not that’s a fact i am very bad at cheating ,i never cheat in my minors but here i knew or i was made to believe that i will have to cheat to get through and all of our class was divided into small groups .

My job was to do English first and pass it on to my group members and i had to get Quant from them . That's the way we prepared.... but when we went to NOIDA our group was divided due to seating arrangement i remember the look on faces of my group members ... everyone was scared , many gave up . and said "Ab kya hoga." Well anyhow we managed to get some people then there was this fight for seating arrangement who will sit of the first bench ......... somehow everything was sorted and we all made a seating plan . My row was fourth or fifth for INFY.

INFY had two main sections for written , Logical Reasoning and English with Sectional cut offs in both .Logical was first .... i did the paper but as we haven’t practiced Logical (we had given more emphasis on QUANT) i lost out. i could not get the answers from my group as invigilation was tough and i was not that good in cheating but in English i did my job and some how all the people from my group barring me cleared the written,
i was crestfallen but that’s what happens sometime , it was my first company and the easiest company but i let it go through , the pain was hard to bear ...
Then there was also the case that 114 from our insti cleared the cut but names of 57 were announced i don't know the truth of it but i do think this can happen ...

anyways wipro was next this time arrangement was different and i had my own group we managed to clear the cut-off ,but i was chalked out in technical , we were told that wipro will ask everything from the subjects we write on out resume ..well that was not the case i was asked everything from subjects that i didn't write in my resume.
So i was disappointed yea , people around me were getting placed what will happen with me ?? I thought will i be able to clear any company at all . i could see around my people leaving (those who got selected ) and people crying ... i was out of my mind ,i told my mom "MUJHE kuch samaj nahi aa rha kya ho rha hai." but my mom like always gave me
confidence. I remember telling het the day before Torry Harris "Placement hogi to zaroor par pta nahi kab hogi."

Anyways new day ,new company and new round for written .Torry Harris had written round as technical ,i brushed up my ds concepts a day before the company came . I remember guys from noida telling me Ab nahi hoga . at that moment it felt very depressing but i just carried on revising and preparing for thbs .

So i cleared the written with ease , next i guess they were looking for people who were proficient in written as well as spoken english. We were told to sell a bottle of Aquafina in the gd round so all the gd's and extempos that i did before going to NOIDA helped.
I cleared this round . Finally we have a TI+HR round where very simple c concepts were asked and well I was placed .
When my name was called i was not happy ,not sad but relieved , relieved that i was finally through . ...

so was it luck or hardwork ??

I guess i can answer this after i tell you about Accenture and Tech Mahindra , at accenture i never went in for cracking the company , i wanted to see my friends through unfortunately only one of them could get through in writtn and he also lost out in GD.
I don't know but he alleges that one of his friends spoke his points , i dont know what to say about this . In fact i am sorry if this has happened and it should not have happened.
In accenture only the unplaced were supposed to have gone through but i could not believe myself when i saw that more of placed students got through again , in short i was made a fool .

anyways Life moves on and it didn't hurt much ..

but then i decided that if i go to noida again i would go all out for second company and thats what i did .

This time around i had no group only two memebers were left out of six or seven and i was virtually thrown out of my own group , i felt suffocated even in wide open campus.
These trips to NOIDA are not a picnic , they are meant to drain you phsically and mentally .
Anyhow i cleared the written , technical was an agonisingly long wait . We were requied to assemble at around nine in the morning. when the first results were out only 4 out of 30 got though for HR. We gave up all hope , my turn for TI came at around 6:30 in the evening ,sitting a LT all day was very draining and frustrating ,i was asled concepts of OS,C,C++,DBMS and in haven't even touched the book since my first placement . So it had been a month but still i managed to crack the TI .

SO coming back to the question was it luck or hardwork ??

Well a mixture of both . Luck because i went into the pannel of person who had an IT background ,hardwork because my concepts were so thorough that even after a month i could answer almost all question my interviewer asked , and then came those words " Amit you have tremendous Potentioal just be a lil more open,you have a bright future."

Hmm after wipro these lines sound like music to me ... truly speaking i am just an average student with a g.p.a of 6.7 but this cooment made me believe that all that i studied didnt go waste. I will never forget these lines my entire lifetime. I can only say u have to work hard to get lucky.

Finally i had an HR and i was through .... this time i was not relieved but i was satisfied.
So friends placements for me has been a journey in which i came to know more about myself, more about the was this world works and i can see myself growing up and waking up to realities of this world . All I can say is Don’t LOOSE HOPE after INFY and WIPRO . There are many more companies . Work on all your subjects because you can be asked anything and in the HR be yourself . Have Faith in YOURSELF ,
ONE of my seniors Amil Sir told me this after Wipro
“ No one can take away what you deserve “.

That is what I thought when I prepared for thbs and that is what I want all those who are left to think and all tho0se who will face the placements in years to come ..


Finally I would like to thank following seniors and friends for their support …..with you all this would have been a very difficult ride .

Amil Sir, Sameer sir ,Avinash sir, Moitra sir ,Pranab sir …. Thank you all


Rupali didi & reeti didi thank for for your guidance and Sharvani thanks fr that message I will always remember it when chips are down ..
And last but not the least Thanks to the Man upstairs who gave me two companies instead on one and their were times when I was thinking will I be able to crack even one.

Not Afraid AnyMore

Ya the monster is there but i am not afraid anymore , i mean i can't stop anyone from liking anyone . All i can do is open my heart up and leave the rest to the person upstairs , so i dont fear the monster anymore .

so this is what i scribbled some days ago on my cell , thats what i am half of my writings are first done on my cell my NokiA 1100 --- really love you . u r my notepad

coming back to the lines

So many things go through my mind ,
when i think of you,
how will it be with you,
what will i do without you
in the end
i am just happy to know you ...

yup , whatever has to happen will happen , life will move on it doesn't stop for anyone but i'll always be there for her

Will die without you

i had a dream,

in which there were just me & you,

to me you were my world.

evrybody left us,

but still with you

my world was perfect

then from somewhere came

a monster ,

whom i could not overpower,

he told me he wants to take you

but i decided

i will die

but not let her take you

for i am all but

finished about you

just can't let you go !!

this is for the most beautiful person in my life , i hope we'll be friends forever and the monster will never take you ...