Just Life

Two and a half years are over , just one & half more and i will be out of college . Ready to take on the World , a computer engineer ...... I dont know who deserves the degree me or my parents who are really paying huge bucks to see me as an Engineer . Coming back to college ya i can still remember distinctly the first day , when i got up and went to temple and then started on this journey . Seems like yesterday , when i had to wish everybody , and look at the irony the same place i am sitting down and writing this peice ,i was ragged ,not ferociously but yes i was ragged .

Then came that Great War of first sem , and it was over soon . I have enetered the second , and had a wake up call when my roomie decided to shift his room , SO i shifted my Hostel to H -4 . Secod sem was masti time never touchedmy books still remeber that black friday when this Prof caught me copying and assigned me a D grade , tha grade will be in my grade sheet forever . Anyways third sem came ......
more on this later
A fitting reply to my infirmity , anyways moving on i had a new partner

Thoughts

I think ,you think and will all think i also thought and these are my thoughts . I dont know about you but i like ths poem , again composed when i was ill ... and taking a holiday



I thought you and me ,
together we had a future,
little did i knew
that the present would betray me
when i found you ,
i thought i found someone ,
different from everyother one

hurt i am now to realise ,
you can never be that "special one "
i thought tomorrow belonged to you and me,
pained i am to know that we couldnt even survive today's Melee
And i know its not your fault ,
but can't blame myself either ....
after i met you i thought,
" that never ending "search has finally ended ,
who was i to know?
that i stand to lose ,
the mental peace and contenment
i had earlier

The enemy Lies WITHIN

hmm here i go again after everything that has happened and a sleepy september october so far has been full of hope and joy , anyways i had thid disease in which there was water in my left lung . I had to go to Delhi to get this stuff out anyways i m fine now and back to work but i felt so miserable and helpless sometimes so this is what i wrote in that not so good times

you can fightand defeat
anyone you can see
but what will you do
when the enemy lies within
you can crush
and slay the beast
which exists on the outside
but what will you do when the enemy lies within
Slowly and silently this enemy goes to work
and before you can even know
this enemy has given you a deadly blow
you can cry,
no matter how much you try ,
this enemy does not stop agonisingly it goes on and on and on
There is no escapeyou can't run and you can't hide,
from this enemy which is no where in your sight ,
wherever you go this enemy goes with you
whatever you do you can't escape
The Enemy which Lies Within

A little humour

I was ill recently so i just realised that in india you are allowed to fall ill if you are rich ,
well i fell ill recently and i am waiting to get rich ...

anyways here is a not so humorous poem ...

I am sitting in a temple,
prayin with my eyes closed ,
still i am anxious aboutr my troubles ,
all this makes me question as to why i came here ??

I am sitting in a temple,
with questions for which i have no answer,
but i am afraid of asking d same to d almighty

I am sitting in a temple ,
stunned and hurt by the way this world works ,
but deep inside i have faith that one who made us all will see us through ...

False Alram

All those who read my last post must have thought that i am back and were eagerly wanting me to write a post real soon but that was nott possible , Just when i thought that i was alright and back to bussiness the doc had some real bad news in store anyways i m fine now and this time even the doctor thinks so .

My illness made me visit delhi and i have a lot to say about my visit . First of all , everyone of us should thank god that we are all fit and dont have to visit the hospitals everyday . I had to go to a hospital recently and i was amazed to see the number of people there and this was a private hospital so i am amazed what a government hospital would be like . Tjhere were scpres of people waiting to get treated and i really thank god that my ailment is not that serious .

Secondly i wana talk about health i dont know about you but i always neglected my health for no definite reasons . I always cursed the food of mess and that made me ill too . Anyways for all those of you who identify with me i just have a request Please eat healty in order to live healthy . My non seriousness about food got me into trouble and everyone in my family was worried too . I had to miss the very exams that i was preparing for . I dnt know what repurcussion its gonna have further but still i am happy that finally i am healthy enough to
live a normal life .

Anyways more on all this stuff a little later .. wwhen i get back to college

I m back

Its been a long time since I blogged . I guess I never wrote anything for ages wrote poems yes but no articles so I m happy that finally I m writing this piece . Life has been kind of topsy turvy this semester and last one month has been very hard but still I guess I have to move on for life never stops the clock moves on …….

Anyways what has been the positives of life till now is I haven’t opened and wrote anything in my book of sorrow this just shows that I haven’t been as depressed as I was last sem . I went to jhansi to my roommates place this august . It was a good experience all in all only that I fell ill seriously after that . Anyways I am better now and am improving day by day . There was this Test 1 and I am staring at test 2 but I am not that bothered now , I guess these exams are a test of our endurance then intelligence . Having 2 exams in a space of six hours leaves you drained and you go through this commotion twice in a sem.

Well we had a session of training and placement today finally its time to get placed its time to do something , I need to recheck my priorities cause I haven’t worked for cat for eternity . I hope things get better soon and the weight that I lost I regain soon , its been a learning curve ,I admit I did lost direction this semester for some reasons but I am back and I want to make this ig this time . Anyways the worst thing that has happened this sem is that eccentric people of my college had banned blogspot . Let them block it they cant stop me from writing or for that matter anyone I think its infringement of my right to liberty ……

I know I just typed an article which contains nothing . For all those who are reading this it doesn’t have anything meaningful but I am writing this one out of sheer urge to write …… I am back and expect some good thing from me soon hopefully cause it will be t&p time soon . Anyways speaking about placement it does get me excited and frightened simultaneously . When one is placed it gives a meaning to his academic life . The person comes to know he is good enough to take care of himself and is not dependent on his parents …… something which the parents always desire …

I hope each one of us end up somewhere ….. for this will give us the satisfaction the past three years and twelve before it was fruitful and it was not a mistake to spend them .
Anyways I do often get the feeling that I may breakdown in front of my interviewers but I am being optimistic about it I would like to say for now let the wheel roll …. Whatever future holds I now I am in for some serious fun … and I hope this Jan ’08 will be a happy hunting ground from me ..

confused again??

What do I do??

What do I do ,
tell me what do I do,
when instead of worrying about all my troubles ,
all I can think about is you

What do I do ,
tell me what do I do,
when all words I utter,
begin and end with you

What do I do ,
tell me what do I do,
when a part of me likes you,
yeah it does care for you,
still I am wondering if we will ever make it through .....

What do I do ,
tell me what do I do,
when I have you so many things to ask from you,
but my lips cease to move,
whenever I see you

What do I do,
tell me what do I do,
when no matter how hard I try,
to forget you,
I can still remember you

What do I do,
Tell me what do I do,
When there are so many things I have to do ,
But all I can do is sit and think of you ….


What do I do ,
Tell me what do I do…….




Amit Sharma
05216g
CSE – 3rd year